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you know, the 2 most important people in my life at the moment - bar family- has let me down so badly in the past couple of days or the past week that i really feel like i'm in a deep cavernous hole of misery.... Only thing is i didn't think anything like this would ever affect me this way....
1-Vivien Isn't it amazing how having a boyfriend can suddenly make you the most horrible person to your supposed best friend? I've done so much for this girl everything from waking up super early to pick her up from her car service, to zooming back from a place one hour away just to get dogged by her... i mean 3 weeks ago it was like she was chucking a total spaz because i wanted to celebrate their birthday with her brother and it was arranged that fine i would go with her so we'd all grab a cab together and go home together. The coldest thing she said to me was yesterday when I asked what the plan was, was
"Oh we'll see you there at 7" amongst the other 2 where
gee Lyn you're so annoying just take Germany and where she bitched about me
Man Lyn is so annoying, she doesn't talk to me anymore Note that the last comment was made later that night when I had asked her for lunch and i drove her as well and just a reminder, just because i don't ask you details of how far you've gone with ur current guy does not mean i'm not talking to you.. It disappoints me that I'm such a firm believer of not ditching your friends for a guy... and i guess that's why i never hang out with many girls they all dog u after a while.. thoguht viv was different cos she used to bitch bout other people.. with mike i tolerated it for a long time.. and damien and so on and so forth.. But i dont think i can stand being taken for granted and until she realises this, i don't think our friendship can withstand much more.
2-My boyfriend unbelievable...remember in the last post i said he was sick cos of me? Well theres more, he also said he was too sick so he wanted to get well faster hence i shouldn't go visit him and let him sleep... after worrying about him all day, and all night cos he didnt answer my calls, he finally returns my call to let me know that not only is he still sick BUT he has just coem home from goign with Chen to a birthday party in Jacksons on George.. That. Really. hurt. He knew how much i wanted him to come with me, instead he went with chen. I mean how bad does it look? here i was telling everyone that he was so sick he had to rest.. but no chen can't drive to the city by himself but i can.... this is hopeless..
i really am pathetic.. i think its time to go bak to the way i was.. not giving a shit about anyone.. not caring.. time to recoup my losses and try a new table...
arghhhhhhh im sick.. im torn.. so many emotions... damn it.. finished exams today yippee!! but i am sick.. and I am better which is a good thing.. but i got my boyfriend sick, which is bad, and now he's so sick he had to miss work.. and i'm flying back to KL on tuesday, and he doesn't even mind that he can't see me until after i come back and THAT'S NOT A PROBLEM???? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND WHO DOESN'T CARE THAT HE CAN'T SEE ME BEFORE I LEAVE?? i have so gotta find someone better... it's crazy.. but i'm starting to get so emo and attached! its bad bad bad gotta get out before i start missing him.... damn it...
