Konj & AntiKonj

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Malaysian Rock Star

uh..3 ppl I only know 2

the walking dead my friend

chicky babe

 
I'm feeling mang... why why whyyy exams are so near yet so far... 2 more to go and first time i dont feel like im going to fail all of them.... i'm mang. i want cuddles.. :( i wanna go home..

 
hey ho... yay get next week off work.. more time for 2300 whoop dee doo... just got home from work not long ago.. was so exciting.. this guy proposed to his girlfren and wanted to make it all romantic and what not so he asked me to hold the ring and bring it out after dinner and all.. and i felt weird just bringing it out so Eddie and I went and got a flower , a lily, put it on a plate then on a tray and a lid got the pianist to dedicate a song to them.. was so sweett.. awwwww how sweet... i got a 10 buck tip for that hehehe besides that work was boring.. had a bad bad day.. didnt study... woke up late.. slept really weird... hmm..

 
this particular blog.. is for Ah Ming dear dear AH ming why must u go and get sick? althoguh i know its not ur fault hehe.. u poor poor thing..t ake care and hope ur moon face goes away hahaha..

i'm a third through my exams.. had 3.. so far.. 1 .. no comment 2.. bad as shit crap worse.. 3.. not bad... now im getting scared.

anyway here's a thought.. how do u classify ppl as HMBs ok well the b is just tehre cos it looks weird if we do just HMs looks like some weird thing.. anwyay.. i never thought i was one.. i mean does liking continental cars constitute that as a characteristic? thats so unfairr.. hahaha sure i like expensive stuff who doesnt? but i dont ask for it.. i rather work for it myself.. so shoudlnt that take me out of the category? anyway my breaks been long enough.. bak to thermo...

for those who dont know.. HMB= High Maintenance Bitch

 
i feel weird.. i feel very detached from myself.. hate hate studying... onlyone week and im sick of it already... arghhhhhhhhhhhhh

 
its been a while.... was hectic... exams start in wat, less than 5 days!! i'm freaking out.... and i also just learnt today that one can study only up to a certain point.... i've been studying for an average of 8-10 hours a day for the past...4 days..... and today... i just cant study and its bad!! i HAVE TO STUDY i hate not being able to do something i cant do.... wait that doesn't make sense... and this day making me just bludge... makes me think... i just wonder...

2 ppl in my life have told me I can't commit.. is this realy true? i thought all that I ever wanted was a commitment... how do ppl make comments and classify those who can and cant commit? what is commitment? is it because im too independent? too boyish? too loud? too fat? too annoying? i love my life.. but i guess like every other girl.. i crave the small things, the happiness of being with someone... but this year.. my luck has been... interesting... strange.. i dont regret any of it.. because like u should never regret anything.. but i'd take it as a learning curve, a learning experience... i've had my share of ups my share of downs.. some more than the others.. but it all helps me learn and become a better person to my ability... of course to my benefit.. so am i really a better person now? am i really happier? im not too sure myself.. i dont think ive become a better person.. i always thought i was nicer last time.. considerate.. a good friend... but then again i coulda been wrong.. now i feel im more selfish.. i feel that.. i don't care anymore.. and i dont know if this makes me a better person or not... but it has improved my life.. drastically.. im healthier, i study more, i work less.. im actually coping with an 8 subject workload.. but am i happier? i dunno.. i just dunno anymore.. a friend of mine who could read palms told me that i could get very depressing and a wise friend described me as someone who "falls in a ditch but knows how to get herself out". i don't envy other ppl, i dont wish to be anyone else but sometimes i wonder what its like.. not to be me.. if i had taken a different path..

 
ohmigod.. im so over Shiki i think i've been there too many times.. we always end up ordering the same thing.

1- Seaweed salad
2-Tuna and salmon Sashimi
3-Soft shell crab
4-unagi
5-chicken katsu
6-soba cold/hot

it's all fantastic.. but i think i've just had it once too many times in the past few months..

its been a crappy and a good weekend all at once for me... well bad news first.. i pulled a 15 hour shift on Saturday which is a first in a long while for me.. not jsut a long shift but a long standing shift... wasn't too bad.. was just an early morning start and was pretty good.. there was a women's conference on at the scientia.. met a guy from Mayne and he gave me a really neat organiser which i gave to Scott cos his clipboard was looking a little shabby. and after that it was off to North Sydney normaly work again.. THAT'S wen it got crappy.. i had to put up with a racist comment from a stupid old white bitch.. fuck lah.. i never get this pissed off.. but after standing for 10 hours before coming to work and putting up with shit like that.. nevertheless i was polite and fuming inside.. oh well.. to make things worse. i fell down the one step we have in the restaurant and sprained my ankle.. swelled up liek a balloon and it hurt so bad and it happened in front of the WHOLE restaurant :( how pathetic...

anyway the good point is.. my mummy and daddy are here!! so my mummy's been looking after me.. and my uncle's been taking me out to eat.. getting fat.. since i haven't had time to go to the gym.. and now with the sprained ankle it doesnt helpah well.. jsut start doing mega yoga and crap after exmas before i go bak..

oh and there's more.. im going bak to kl after all.. flying on the 5th i guess.. going to Beijing for christmas to see snow!!

yeehaa!!!