Konj & AntiKonj

A fav friend of mine :)

Malaysian Rock Star

uh..3 ppl I only know 2

the walking dead my friend

chicky babe

 
i'm so confused... How is it one person can behave extraordinarily different in front of one person and so different in front of another?? yes yes.. it takes you 1 1/2 hours to buy an egg tart... did it ever occur that I might get worried? nooo.. it doesn't..but that doesnt matter right? yeesh

 
I just don't get it.... gee when we offer you a drink, you never drink. Go out with this damn boy and you drink? right.... you know him for how long? and you know EVERYTHING about him? What makes him so damn good huh? why all the stupid stupid petty lies? oh yes what do parents usually say about a girl who stays at a guy's house till late at night who she barely knows? yes that's right, even our parents think that way, who's to say his parents don't? What's happened to you/ What's gone into your head to make you behave in this way? so brainless? so naively stupid? Want to be treated like an adult? then damn well behave like one. don't be selfish and inconsiderate to others. Gee when you're having exams, you never have to cook, never have to think abotu food, never have to wash dishes. Once you finish exams, "oh you want me to cook lunch for you?" but deep down its like "oh but i have to go and see him before his exams and YOU want ME to cook for you?"

I honestly didn't know that you were like this.. to see you so crazy abotu someone you barely know.. I try to tell you and you think i'm controlling you.. so fine do what you want.. i dont care anymore... don't bother trying to stay home with me to keep me company i'm fine on my own.

It's really too bad you can't hear my thoughts.. it's too bad you also can't hear other ppl's thoughts.. oh well... even if you could you'd choose not to listen... am i really that bad a person?





on another note.. exams.. were cruisey.. i thought i screwed BIOM9561, but i apparently went in with a 51 so def pass.. and my lecturer aka my supervisor emailed me to say i did ok... too bad, i wanted a supp cos the special consideration was a half truth.. i was vomiting continuously the night before .. damn

 
yes yes its always me who doesn't understand, me who wants to control, me who wants to spoil all the fun me who wants to nag, me who wants to be pissy all the time.

think I enjoy having to be the responsible one all the time? think i don't wish i could just do whatever the hell I wanted?

why should I bother sitting tehre while someone tries to fix it? its not even mine to begin with, and ur too busy on the phone then u'll tell whoever it is that i'm being bitchy and in a pissy mood. Why should I go and look for everything for the house while u run off and go see your friend?

when is it my turn to bum around and be taken care off?



Why is it always me who has to be the one to admit the wrong and do what's right? When is it my turn to be understood?

 
I HATE MY STUPID STUPID BRAIN...

i'm so stupid. I missed 2 lectures and ALL the questions came out on those and they were the big ones!! bleh.. was hoping to score well. Now it will marr my record..

to make matters worse, I have bad skin, a huge zit on my face, was vomiting all night last nite and i have an exam tomoro... this sucks...








I miss my Mum

 
A woman rubbed a bottle and out popped a genie. The amazed woman asked if she got three wishes. The genie said, "Nope, sorry, three-wish genies are a storybook myth. I'm a one-wish genie". So... what'll it be?" The woman did not hesitate. She said, "I want peace in the Middle East.

See this map? I want these countries to stop fighting with each other and I want all the Arabs to love the Jews and Americans and vice-versa.
It will bring about world peace and harmony."

The genie looked at the map and exclaimed, "Lady, be reasonable. These countries have been at war for thousands of years. I'm out of shape after being in a bottle for five hundred years. I'm good but not THAT good! I don't think it can be done. Make another wish and please be reasonable."

The woman thought for a minute and said, "Well, I've never been able to find the right man. You know - one that's considerate and fun, romantic, likes to cook and help with the house cleaning, is good in bed, and gets along with my family, doesn't watch sport all the time, and is faithful. That is what I wish for...a good man."

The genie let out a SIGH and said,



Let me see that f*cking map again."

 
i have curly-ish/wavy-ish hair today!! Joy did my hair in 2 french braids last nite so now its all curly hehehe.. everyone says it looks nice hehe

anyway study study time!!

 
I wanna die wanna die......

my plan was:
Monday: clean house
Tuesday: do assignment get most of it done
Wednesday: PDF final assignment and submit, by night rest

however, its wednesday night and i have written mebbe 20 words? things are not going well for me.. I don't think i'm cut out for research....

how I wish i could have something impressive like "Dean's List" or " Dean's Award" on my CV. haiz.. my own fault for screwing up first year.. affects you for shit like this. good thing it doesn't affect me for my honours in Mech.. Oh well, hope the employers can see getting Term WAMS of 82 for 8 subjects is good enough...

i bought pants and a matching jacket and a skirt (workish) type today.. blew 140 bucks...
I also bought T3!
haiz.. better finish my assignment tomoro nite gotta get at least one night of BIOM9561 study done before starting experimentation!!

 
yes.. go do what you want. I never stopped you. I didn't realise that "wanting to know what was going on" was equivalent to "controlling you"

let me know what's going on == running your life ??

its amazing how things can so completely be twisted just so things can be seen your way... its also sad to know that that's how you think of me... i try to do so many things for you, try to help you to be the best, help make things easier yet, when i take an interest in a part of your life which is important, you immediately close and say go away. I never said you could never go out with him, i never said he was bad. I just ABSOLUTELY HATE it when you give me tiny little petty lies just so I won't know anything... it like i always says, insults my intelligence and makes me feel like a fool....

 
"Let me run my own life!"
yes! i wish you would! i'm not even attempting in this aspect, but you wouldn't understand, because everything is YOU YOU YOU.... you don't know what its like to think about other people, to protect them.

yes i think u're naive and it insults my intelligence when you lie to me.. i'm so much older i've been through all this and i don't want anythign to happen to you.. but u only take it as me controlling you... take it how you will i give up...

 
arghh.... My moods are all mixed up today.. for a number of reasons..

1) I slept at 4, was woken at 6 by this fucking weirdo wrong number

2) that caused me to oversleep for 10 minutes made me late and i couldn't go for my step class

3) that made me sleep more like a pig but was a restless sleep

4) i've been sitting here all day working on my BIOM9410 Major Assignment because i wasn't able to do it last week because i was doing my thesis and preparing for the BIOM9561 presentation which brings me to the next two points

5) i TOTALLY fucked up my presentation.. so. so. bad... Our group was running out of time, and they were like "just quickly wrap it up" so i was in such a hurry, i stuttered so much, i forgot everything i was gonna say... and the lecturer aka MY SUPERVISOR asked me a question and I couldn't answer it

6) My thesis has been crazy.. I had a meeting this week, got my draft lit review handed back with this comment: " This stuff is good, but we know you can do so much better"

7) Finishing exams onthe 27th, i have to come in on the 29th to start working on my thesis

8) body issues: I usually am happy with the way i look. i mean i'm not obsessed enough to go on a crash diet. its not MY fault i have big bones.. but sometimes it sucks... I posted some new pictures of me and my sister on friendster and a few of my frens have commented that I shouldn't put them up cos my sister is so attractive it takes the attention away.

Yes I'm happy that my sister is considered hot
No i'm not happy that guys I KNOW are tackling her
No i'm not jealous
Yes I find it gross that I know your past and all the shit they do and they wanna come onto my little sister??


but yes it does annoy me a little why is it that I had to be the big fat ugly one? :'(