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wow already halfway through the first month of the new year... its been agess.... since i last blogged.. been so busy. with John going away and then Wai coming back and then parents coming.. it's been hectic and fun... i'll post up pics later on... i've still been getting fat and fat and fat.. been enjoying food wayy too much.. yesterday for brunch we had EXCELLENT scrambled eggs with smoked salmon and turkish bread. and then late last night Wai made blueberry pancakes.. was so damn good... and then today i made my first poached eggs.. was goooddddd next time i'll make hollandaise sauce too.. and we had that with smoked salmon. in the arvo, wai and I went to darlinghurst and finally had coffee in that pattiserie. and then for dinner he made me RISSOLES!! ohmygod i've been craving rissoles forever! and its so impossible to find good non-beef rissoles.. was so damn tasty.... anyway see ya later...

mmm pancakes ohmigod rissoles! to die for

 
I'm getting fat.. and fat... and fat.... for the past 2 weeks, all i've been doing is meeting up with friends before they leave. Most of the time I've been taking John out. cos he's like.. so.. weird haha.. been here for 4 years and hasn't really been out.. aww he's gone and I miss him!! For someone who has been doing the same course, I only recently started talking to him like this year? He's not very approachable.. well looks-wise. Guess appearances can be deceiving... Almost everyone's gone... Oh well.. 6 months to go!!.. I have been rarely swimming.. if i average it out.. it's like once every 1 and a half weeks.. I have also been going to the gym only once a week since I restarted the membership...

My mom's supposed to be coming on Tuesday morning (arriving) just in time for my sister's birthday on wednesday.. She's turning 18 and I have no idea what to get her. I suck at buying presents..She's been all weird lately.. like.. sometimes she gets cranky at me for no reason... and I can't help.. I don't know what's wrong... oh well.. she must be having fun with Jie Jie cos she has barely spent time with me... It's weird... She probably thinks I hate having her around.. its hard for her to understand because.. yes taking care of her is a responsibility, but I enjoy it.. it comes with being an older sister. its only certain things which i think she could do that would make MY life easier.. but oh well.. she thinks i hate having her here i think...

anyway.. i went to Waqu yesterday.. nice restaurant.. degustation menu for $45 a head. and 2 bottles of sake, 2 bottles of beer.. pretty nice.. but not filling enough for a full and hearty meal but was damn good. got earrings as a present too!! will post pictures soon enough..

Was a damn nice day today, went to Una's for lunch, then walked around Paddington... came home and had a nap.. before I know it, was 7pm already.. went for a swim.. and now i'm sitting here after a nice hot shower.. gonna go eat....

 
I'm so irritated.. its too late.. so i'll just vent about the most recent one...

What makes you think that just because you're dating her now allows u to take over everything? want to plan this plan that.. jsut because her frens aren't and I'm not.. did you ever think that maybe her family wants to spend time with her? Have u ever stopped to think what her parents who fly so many miles to spend a measly 2 weeks here with her want to do? noo.. instead you try and get on her good side.. by planning this... yes yes.. u are so good, u are so fantastic.. jsut make me look worse... so wat if its a birthday? family is mroe important.. u know at the beginning i thoguht u were ok.. as each day goes by i start to dislike you.. now even more and more... screw you.. in fact.. i dont give a shit anymore... everythign is my fault anyway

 
What an amazing day!! I went shopping non-stop.. from 8am till 4... the shoe sale that i had been looking forward to was such a huge disappointment.. but then.... we eventually went to a sale that was... GREAT!! i picked up 2 dresses, 1 pair of shorts, 2 tanks to wear inside with nice lace (those were only 5 bucks!) I also bought a top for my mom and a pair of gym shorts for her too.... Joy got 2 nice dresses (she's in love with the black one which i'll be sharing hehe)

the seventh avenue sale sucked. a top for 120? i dont think i can afford that.. well not yet anywya...

the tim o connor sale?!? FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!! i found a really nice top which was slashed from 200 to 10 bucks!! 10 bucks!! i bought a nice long black dinner dress which was simple.. yet quite nice .. and the back was so perfect.. it framed my tatt!! hehehe.. but oh well.. i have to stop shopping.. all tehse nice clothes wiht no where to go :(...

I'm a little peeved.... "i'm sick of him" yet "i'm going to see him before i go out"... yeesh...

ahhh i'm all shopped out.. oh i also bought a one piece so i can go swimming!! something i've been wanting form last season.. so wat if its last season!?!? i 'm only using it for laps hehe gotta try and get healthy and lose weight......

 
i'm so confused... How is it one person can behave extraordinarily different in front of one person and so different in front of another?? yes yes.. it takes you 1 1/2 hours to buy an egg tart... did it ever occur that I might get worried? nooo.. it doesn't..but that doesnt matter right? yeesh

 
I just don't get it.... gee when we offer you a drink, you never drink. Go out with this damn boy and you drink? right.... you know him for how long? and you know EVERYTHING about him? What makes him so damn good huh? why all the stupid stupid petty lies? oh yes what do parents usually say about a girl who stays at a guy's house till late at night who she barely knows? yes that's right, even our parents think that way, who's to say his parents don't? What's happened to you/ What's gone into your head to make you behave in this way? so brainless? so naively stupid? Want to be treated like an adult? then damn well behave like one. don't be selfish and inconsiderate to others. Gee when you're having exams, you never have to cook, never have to think abotu food, never have to wash dishes. Once you finish exams, "oh you want me to cook lunch for you?" but deep down its like "oh but i have to go and see him before his exams and YOU want ME to cook for you?"

I honestly didn't know that you were like this.. to see you so crazy abotu someone you barely know.. I try to tell you and you think i'm controlling you.. so fine do what you want.. i dont care anymore... don't bother trying to stay home with me to keep me company i'm fine on my own.

It's really too bad you can't hear my thoughts.. it's too bad you also can't hear other ppl's thoughts.. oh well... even if you could you'd choose not to listen... am i really that bad a person?





on another note.. exams.. were cruisey.. i thought i screwed BIOM9561, but i apparently went in with a 51 so def pass.. and my lecturer aka my supervisor emailed me to say i did ok... too bad, i wanted a supp cos the special consideration was a half truth.. i was vomiting continuously the night before .. damn

 
yes yes its always me who doesn't understand, me who wants to control, me who wants to spoil all the fun me who wants to nag, me who wants to be pissy all the time.

think I enjoy having to be the responsible one all the time? think i don't wish i could just do whatever the hell I wanted?

why should I bother sitting tehre while someone tries to fix it? its not even mine to begin with, and ur too busy on the phone then u'll tell whoever it is that i'm being bitchy and in a pissy mood. Why should I go and look for everything for the house while u run off and go see your friend?

when is it my turn to bum around and be taken care off?



Why is it always me who has to be the one to admit the wrong and do what's right? When is it my turn to be understood?

 
I HATE MY STUPID STUPID BRAIN...

i'm so stupid. I missed 2 lectures and ALL the questions came out on those and they were the big ones!! bleh.. was hoping to score well. Now it will marr my record..

to make matters worse, I have bad skin, a huge zit on my face, was vomiting all night last nite and i have an exam tomoro... this sucks...








I miss my Mum

 
A woman rubbed a bottle and out popped a genie. The amazed woman asked if she got three wishes. The genie said, "Nope, sorry, three-wish genies are a storybook myth. I'm a one-wish genie". So... what'll it be?" The woman did not hesitate. She said, "I want peace in the Middle East.

See this map? I want these countries to stop fighting with each other and I want all the Arabs to love the Jews and Americans and vice-versa.
It will bring about world peace and harmony."

The genie looked at the map and exclaimed, "Lady, be reasonable. These countries have been at war for thousands of years. I'm out of shape after being in a bottle for five hundred years. I'm good but not THAT good! I don't think it can be done. Make another wish and please be reasonable."

The woman thought for a minute and said, "Well, I've never been able to find the right man. You know - one that's considerate and fun, romantic, likes to cook and help with the house cleaning, is good in bed, and gets along with my family, doesn't watch sport all the time, and is faithful. That is what I wish for...a good man."

The genie let out a SIGH and said,



Let me see that f*cking map again."

 
i have curly-ish/wavy-ish hair today!! Joy did my hair in 2 french braids last nite so now its all curly hehehe.. everyone says it looks nice hehe

anyway study study time!!

 
I wanna die wanna die......

my plan was:
Monday: clean house
Tuesday: do assignment get most of it done
Wednesday: PDF final assignment and submit, by night rest

however, its wednesday night and i have written mebbe 20 words? things are not going well for me.. I don't think i'm cut out for research....

how I wish i could have something impressive like "Dean's List" or " Dean's Award" on my CV. haiz.. my own fault for screwing up first year.. affects you for shit like this. good thing it doesn't affect me for my honours in Mech.. Oh well, hope the employers can see getting Term WAMS of 82 for 8 subjects is good enough...

i bought pants and a matching jacket and a skirt (workish) type today.. blew 140 bucks...
I also bought T3!
haiz.. better finish my assignment tomoro nite gotta get at least one night of BIOM9561 study done before starting experimentation!!

 
yes.. go do what you want. I never stopped you. I didn't realise that "wanting to know what was going on" was equivalent to "controlling you"

let me know what's going on == running your life ??

its amazing how things can so completely be twisted just so things can be seen your way... its also sad to know that that's how you think of me... i try to do so many things for you, try to help you to be the best, help make things easier yet, when i take an interest in a part of your life which is important, you immediately close and say go away. I never said you could never go out with him, i never said he was bad. I just ABSOLUTELY HATE it when you give me tiny little petty lies just so I won't know anything... it like i always says, insults my intelligence and makes me feel like a fool....

 
"Let me run my own life!"
yes! i wish you would! i'm not even attempting in this aspect, but you wouldn't understand, because everything is YOU YOU YOU.... you don't know what its like to think about other people, to protect them.

yes i think u're naive and it insults my intelligence when you lie to me.. i'm so much older i've been through all this and i don't want anythign to happen to you.. but u only take it as me controlling you... take it how you will i give up...

 
arghh.... My moods are all mixed up today.. for a number of reasons..

1) I slept at 4, was woken at 6 by this fucking weirdo wrong number

2) that caused me to oversleep for 10 minutes made me late and i couldn't go for my step class

3) that made me sleep more like a pig but was a restless sleep

4) i've been sitting here all day working on my BIOM9410 Major Assignment because i wasn't able to do it last week because i was doing my thesis and preparing for the BIOM9561 presentation which brings me to the next two points

5) i TOTALLY fucked up my presentation.. so. so. bad... Our group was running out of time, and they were like "just quickly wrap it up" so i was in such a hurry, i stuttered so much, i forgot everything i was gonna say... and the lecturer aka MY SUPERVISOR asked me a question and I couldn't answer it

6) My thesis has been crazy.. I had a meeting this week, got my draft lit review handed back with this comment: " This stuff is good, but we know you can do so much better"

7) Finishing exams onthe 27th, i have to come in on the 29th to start working on my thesis

8) body issues: I usually am happy with the way i look. i mean i'm not obsessed enough to go on a crash diet. its not MY fault i have big bones.. but sometimes it sucks... I posted some new pictures of me and my sister on friendster and a few of my frens have commented that I shouldn't put them up cos my sister is so attractive it takes the attention away.

Yes I'm happy that my sister is considered hot
No i'm not happy that guys I KNOW are tackling her
No i'm not jealous
Yes I find it gross that I know your past and all the shit they do and they wanna come onto my little sister??


but yes it does annoy me a little why is it that I had to be the big fat ugly one? :'(

 
arghh fuck.. so many things to do and I keep procrastinating. IT expo is on Wednesday and I haven't even written my CV. I havent done ANYTHING on my thesis and i have a meeting next week. arghhhhhhhhh crap and to top it all off i'm not feeling great...

 
Holy crap i just realised.. it's July already

 
fuckity fuck fuck...

I apologise for the language but I am in an awfully pissy well not so much pissy but annoyed mood. Firstly, today there was no bloody solids 2B lecture.. i mean if so, why didn't they post it on the notice board BEFORE this morning? some ppl leave the house early. So basically i spent all day in uni doing NOTHING and all ALONE. what a bloody waste of time..

Secondly, I finally caught Anne - my supervisor - at the intro BIOM9410 lecture and she says calmly,"We have a minor snag. The company which sponsors ur thesis topic has pulled out the project" I mean I had my heart set on this, I was all super prepared and everything and now, I have to go through and think what thesis topic to choose AGAIN. Perhaps I'm being melodramatic about this but I do feel pretty strongly about it. arghh... what if i fail my thesis? what if i never graduate? What if i can't find a job? oh well.. shitty shit shit for me...


Back to sydney... I miss my mom very very much and i miss just being with family I think i've been alone for too long.. I'm glad I have my little sister here with me.. it's nice.. I also miss momo hehe... he's so cute there was once i had just put on lip balm which smells fruity.. and he was trying to jump on the bed to come closer then he was like smelling really really close hehe so so so cute ..


On another note.. I've been watching wayy wayy wayy too many romantic comedies... its a bad thing. know why? because it puts silly notions in my head. why can't real life be like movies? and someone wise said "Why can't real life be like movies?" i guess yes, movies arean escape from reality.. but can't ppl learn from movies and behave like it? oh well.. I guess I can't really complain cos not ALL movies are good :)

I heard the other day that a close fren of mine just had a breakup. I dunno the FULL story cos he's not quite ready to tell me yet and I think that they're still having "discussions" but I was quite shocked to hear it. I mean we've had talk where they planned their life after uni, (cos one is working) who's moving where, what the other person wants, how to achieve what they want and even marriage! I mean I thoguht this couple was it. you know they would last etc etc.... this past year inclusive of '05, so many long term couples split up.. it shocked the hell outta me.. If these couples who talk of love and commitment and marriage and are supposed to be so in love with each other and they don't have a chance.... what chance do i have of living happily together ever after??

 
im so annoyed... so mr. yau i'm sorry but no blog tonight...

 
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results are out!!!!!

 
oh crap crap crap... i knew i should be more careful... My mom saw it.. she saw it and she asked me and I said it was just a stick on... i shoulda been more careful... and then she didn't say anything about it until night time.. just 5 minutes ago... and she asked me again and I couldn't lie to her face.... so i told her.. and she touched it and she got angry that i got it(because it was scarred so its puffy) and then she's making excuses.. then i told my dad and he's so excited about it.. and then now my mom's making excuses saying its bad to have a religious symbol etc etc and she wants me to remove it!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

 
1 down 4 to go.... can't lecturers just believe us when we say we learnt something? why do they feel like they need to test us???? even with bloody FEA, i just knew it, with my luck the ones i COULDN'T do would come out... grrr....

ah i feel so accomplished... finishing ONE exam.. i haven't even finished my project I haven't even STARTED anything else.. yet i feel so accomplished.. stupid stupid stupid stupid Lyn.... this is not good...

my next one is.... Networking oh wat fun, wat joy, i bloody hate this damn subject.. Bring on Mechanics 3, bring on ANYTHING just don't give me networking?? I think this is one subject i am worried about failing... hopefully he'll scale us up.. or... mebbe .. just mebbe... i can get my first PC.. haha lets just hope i pass lah....

had 2 days off from studying... Friday night went out to "Sushi Samurai" in Neutral Bay.. It's pretty good food.. and relatively cheap... ordered DELUXE PLATTER Sashimi.. me likeyyyyy.... then the whole night was over.. well since dinner started late anwyay went to the doctor with Wai... hahaha... i dunno why... he was sick!! hahaha...
Last night we had HOT POT yayyyyy was so nice i was so stuffed after... during which we watched "The Island" was quite interesting.. so i was glued to the tv.. which isn't very polite i guess. after hot pot, i was so full, so lazy.. i kept falling asleep during the portugal vs Iran match which was quite annoying cos i only like watching the goals.. adn i kept missing it.. damn dman damn!! anywya i slept damn well... guess I should start studying.. soon.. enough...

 
this is all your fault aidan yau... now i'm hooked on venting on my blog i'll never have time for anything else...

robot... hai damn robot... I had a dream last night that we didn't win... I KNEW we weren't gonna win.. but when i heard Willgoss say the nominations and our group was up there i must admit i was a little bit excited. at the same time when they said Prashan's group number, i also knew deep down that they were going to win. but its frustrating its so so frustrating. I know that we did well because we made our robot guy redundant but at the same time I'm a bad loser I wanna be the best.. i'm NEVER ever the best.. why can't i ever be the best???

 
Ok its 1.24am and i should be asleep but i'm blogging.. and this is just so YOU MR AIDAN YAU will have something to read. It's been ages since I last blogged.. and its just because i dont really have much to say neither does anyone actually care whether i've blogged or not. so i've actually turned my blog into a venting page where I go and have all the hissy fits I want that nobody can hear and I can say anything in the damn hell I want.

Anyway it has been a while so there is wayyy too too much to say.. i'll update for the rare few that come across my blog but I'll say whats on my mind right now.

Exams start next week and I haven't even had the time to start thinking about it. Last sem it was ALL tests continuously with a few punctuated assignments.. This sem it's ALL projects huge and huge and lots and lots. Anyway haven't been too happy with some of them. BUT the only thing on my mind right now is ROBOTICS... stupid stupid kap kap.. i fucking HATE him.. now hate is a damn strong word and that's right i actually hate him..

anyway, the prize giving is tomoro and i wonder if we'll get it. I don't want to put too much hope into it cos if i do and we don't win, i'll be very very depressed. and there's a high chance we wont win. because the major rivals, they've been prepared for weeks. ours is just lucky it worked on the day cos we didn't have proper testing. but goddammit we should get it just due to the fact that we did it a WHOLE WEEK earlier....

So on this note i go to bed in anticipation.......... hope i dont dream about the damn robot.........

 
right.. so now i cant even be dignified with a proper response??

firstly, i didnt bitch about u, all i did was complain because i was super stressed about my sister among other things... my sister took it and interpreted it her way and blew it wayy out of proportion.. well understandably she was wayyyyy pissed.. and wasn't rational... but then.. u say no its not right.. but she is a lil girl..

secondly, i ALWAYS complain... everyone knows that all i do is whinge..and since wai isnt here for me to winge to, i whinge to joy... too bad... her perception is wayy off....

thirdly, I always thoguht frens were called frens because they could be counted on to be the ones who tried to understand.... if i knew fresnw ould just immediately block u and refuse point blank to "negotiate" then i wouldnt bother having frens. good frens are wen u can say almost anythign to each other openly... "if u have an issue bring it up with me etc etc.." i tried apologising.. but then u just openly rejected it... so not fair.... but its not up to me. if u cant accept my apology then i guess like u say we should move on...

 
oh dear... i think i've been pmsing too much..... i was in a really bad mood and have been so crabby to just absolutely everyone.... and i think i made things really bad.... :( i wanna apologise to everyone i was mean to like gwin... i didnt mean to just cut u off like that.... dont be mad ok.. iwas just being pmsy and crabby.. cos its so busy.. also sorry to anastasia... dont be mad... i was just panicking.... anyway i hope everybody forgives me..........

 
YAYYYY results are out... 96,92,89,77,75,71. i'd say i did pretty well hehehe... Wai did pretty good too for 30 credits he got 1 Hd, 2 D, 2 C and 2 P.. its damn good... even vim did good 2 d and pass everything!! :) guess its cos of the hard work we put in this sem.. feels so good.. can't wait to get out of uni.... i'm quite sleepy.. been getting sleepy everyday... early.. feel like such a pig.. i've been alone for almost a week now.. was quite awkward at first.. felt so strange.. being a lone... and its no fun being bored alone.. i've gotten tremendously lazy.. all i wanna od is lie in bed.. :(

 
well.. its been awhile.... and i'm feelign depressed.. not even the pre-exam depression yet... that hasnt had time to hit yet.. now is just burn-out depression from assignments.. plus today was super bad.... met up with a lecturer (which i dont really like) and my day just went downhill from there.... i dont think i'm doing too well in this subject... firstly he's biased against me... and he just gave me the impression that we didn't do very well in my lab report.. which just pisses me off even more... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i wanna cry... :(

 
wow.. session 2 already.... man its quick... before we talk about the session ahead we should review session 1.... results? not bad not bad for 9 exams.. i guess.. 1 Hd, 2 D, 3 C and 1 P. not bad huh.. but.. not as good as the session before.. well.. i guess it is ok for such hard subjects really disappointed with solids 3 though.. did so much study throughout the session.. anyway as a whole it was a pretty good session.. really improved... studying every week.. something we HAD to do since we had tests just about every week... i think i'm getting sick of being stuck in uni while everyone has graduated... anyway this session, was really keen on changing from mechatronics to mech with biomed.. but was thinking "hmm.. if other ppl can do it.. why cant i?" only doing 7 subjects, 27 credits... quite tough have at least 1 assesment every week starting from week 3. so if i dont catch up with anyone.. please please understand.. hehe... i just wanna do well and get out of uni.... only 4 sessions to go including this one... will do my thesis next year session 2. only t hing is i'm not sure if i'm capable of doing a thesis.. scares the shit out of me though.. oh well. such is life. gonna go work on some "real time bullshit" now

 
who woulda thought turning 21 would come so quick... hai.. so so sad.... i'm old... :(

 
Just wanna send my condolences out to Kee.. for her precious Princess...

anyway... wat do u do wen u have 2 tests in week 6 and 4 tests in week 7 and you're not prepared for ANY of them?....

Die....

 
What to do your Man's just not Man enough?

a) dump him.. its over.. go find a new one.. who's 10 times more manly, 10 times more gentlemanly and is not scared of his ex. b) tolerate being no.2 for as long as it takes hmm wat if i dont want either of those.. wat should i do? i'm so sick of (b).... so sick of hearing "yeah come visit me.. hang on.. dont come before 10 cos i'm going out for dinner with her" or "wait can i call you back later? I'm on the phone with her" or but she might hurt herself i have to be with her i'll see you tomoro" ok the last one isnt an exact quote but ididn't quite know wat else to put... i'm just so sick of it.. why cant i ever hear him say to HER "sorry ttul, my girlfren's on the phone..." guess i'm asking for too much... why is it i always get all the crummy ones with excess baggage.... anyway my problems are trivial.. nothign ...Denise is in the hospital... something serious about her diabetes and all.. her bf (whos a complete angel) rang me to let me know.. i might go see her today.. hope she's ok....

 
hmm.. it's been awhile.. been back in Sydney for 2 weeks already and so quickly uni is going to start soon... I finally did my elec lab.. musta gone ok.. cos i passed Elec.. got a credit.. yayyyy no passes this session.. excellent.. wat else wat else... oh yeah pulled a 10 hour shift at the Scientia.. havent done that in awhile.. no break.. so that killed my feet was absolutely exhausted at the end of it... uh... theres nothign else on.. cept been keeping busy.. tidied up the house a lil... been trying to eat healthy started going to the gym again... living alone.. is so much easier.. i love it.. its great... and i always thought i'd be lonely.. but its been ok so far.. should be easier through out the session come this sunday :) yayyyy cant wait....

oh yeah.. been wanting to write about my dreams... had a few weird dreams recently.. one of them i've had before... was strange.. woke up with a weird sense of dejavu and throughout the whole dream i kinda knew wat was goign to happen and i wanted so badly to change it but i couldnt.. i can't remember how it started.. but it always ends the same.. roughly wen this girl everyone hates decides to slaughter a goat and drop a whole piece of bloody meat from her treetop house onto the ground.. that would lure out a tiger.. so everyone was oohing and ahhing going" that stupid bitch" and then i remembered i left something down on the ground somewhere and i absolutely had to get it.... so i'd go down the rest of it is basically just me getting away from the tiger... a game of cat and mouse almost... and it always ends with me and the tiger almost face to face.. me trying to outsmart it... damn its smart.

the second one was strange but i never had it before.. i was walking in this high class residential area in malaysia wen this guy tried to rob me of my mobile.. he didn't manage to.. and he got away and i started yelling "help stop him, he's a thief!" being in malaysia, no one responded and suddenly my dad was on him bashing the guy up.. somehow i had had some army training of somesort.. and i started to beat up the guy too... suddenly he pulls out this small knife.. u noe the type u take on camping trips and all. and he stabs my dad.. i put him out.. and then take my dad to the nearest hospital... it wasnt serious or anything.. but was quite strange.....

among other news.. hahaha i hear that it bothers someone that our friends are still our friends.. loyalty.. hah! this girl should eat her own words... makes me sick this hypocrite... there are so many other things i'd like to sya but it just wouldnt be right.. make me as bad as her... if she only knew.... /me shakes my head..

so so sad.. and i thought i was a relatively good judge of character.. ah well.. guess iwas wrong.. not my loss :)